Baby Charlie Brady

MY FAMILY MISS ME VERY VERY MUCH, THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR CONTINUED SUPPORT AND KEEPING CHARLIES
MEMORY ALIVE. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

WE were surprised to hear that mummy was pregnant, we went for scan to be told things werent good,
mummy feels sad everyday to think that painkillers she took once having a tooth out could have done
this to you without me even knowing you were a precious little bundle in mummys tummy,was horrible
to hear that you had no fluid to protect you and you had abnormal kidneys and heart, at the time
it was like ripping my heart out. mummy was given the option to carry you to term and give birth to
you for you to pass away during birth or end your suffering when i did it ,was the hardest decision
your daddy and i have ever had to make. Mummy was asked to take a tablet to let you go gently, i had
to go home for 2 days knowing it was all to end it was an awful feeling darling, on the day i had to
go into the hospital to have you darling i have never cryed as much in my life as i did on that day.
they induced mummy to help you on your way i couldnt do it baby i was crying to much then after a
few hours you were born, it was the worst moment of my life, they took you away as i wasnt ready to
see you then after an couple of hours they brought you back in a beautiful little basket with a
lovely brown teddy i cryed for you darling i couldnt believe how small but perfect you looked, they
then took you away to do a postmortam as mummy and daddy wanted to know what caused your
abnormalitys, i am sorry we put you throught that but mummy needed to know to settle her mind.

when the results came back they were 99% sure that it was the tablets mummy took when she got her
wisdom tooth out that caused your problems i fell apart inside knowing that it was because of me! I
AM SO SORRY BABY I LOVE YOU i would never have done it if i knew you were in my tummy. at least you
werent to suffer and god looked down on mummy and daddy and 6 weeks after losing you darling we
were blessed to hear the news that your baby brother kyle was sent to ease our pain, that pregnancy
was full of problems too as they were keeping a close eye on baby to make sure he was ok , then
things started going wrong for kyle , he made it here safely but just darling why does these things
happen to people like mummy i look after myself and my babies while im pregnant and still things go
wrong.

On the the 24th of january we held your funeral, it was snowing heavy that day, there were only a
few of mummys closest friends there plus mummy and daddy we had to wade through the thick snow to
your special plot at the cemetary, you were carried out of the funeral car by daddys friend ian as
daddy was ever so upset and we knew he would take good care of you, you have a beautiful white
coffin with lovely gold candles and a plate on the top with your name and date of birth i also
placed with you a beautiful necklace that mummy bought for you to take to your special place your
brown teddy that was given to you by maureen the bereavement councellor went with you too. When you
were gently lowered into the ground mummy lay a red rose on top of your coffin and to be honest
darling everything after that went in a blur as mummy and daddy were knelling in the snow by your
coffin in pieces!

we then went home then mummy went to bed cryed for hours waiting for the rest of that day to end .
we wanted you to go to heaven in the best way we could send you i hope we done you proud xxxxxx

but i have seen the sunnier side of life now as the pregnancy and birth of aidan was perfect it is
about time it was like that for mummy, i bet it is because you and your angel friends were looking
out for us!now 3 years on it still hurts.conner always asks what happened to his baby and kyle and
baby aidan will grow up to know about you too, you will always be my second born special gift and we
will never ever goe through a day without thinking of you . goodnight sweetheart mummy and daddy
always carry you with them xx